It is getting cold outside.

This year has just been kinda Topsy Tervie. In some ways it has flown by and in other ways it has been one of those years that drags.

We added our first grandson to the family . He is just Delicious, Damon Mathew (named after his uncle that passed a year ago). He is now 5 months. He can light up a room with his gummy smile.

Our Granddaughter Delilah turned 3 and Emelie turned 1. That Delilah is 3 going on 30. She is a hoot for sure. Emelie is sweet and all about food. She cracks me up.

We have been so blessed with those three that is for sure!!!!

Then this year we lost Earl to his brave fight with Cancer. It started right before Thanksgiving last year. He was diagnosed with lung cancer which then spread to his pelvis, bones, and brain. We thought he had it licked in May when his tests showed he beat those and had gone into remission!!!! But it was short lived. 3 weeks later they found spinal cancer. They gave him 2 months. He passed in 20 days. We made it there in time for David to be be there for Earl. It was the first time I have actually seen someone pass. I think God was definitely there for Earl and me. I have this thing about seeing dead people. 

I have been to plenty of funerals. I just do not look. I was 10 when my great grandfather passed and 16 when my great grandmother passed. Back then we where Catholic and the crying and sobbing gave you a migraine for days. And as a kid what are you supposed to do with those images. Ugh not good. So I have gone to other funerals since then and I have just tried to avoid looking.

But when you are there to see someone pass. I can only hope that they go peacefully. I still miss him every minute of every day. He was such a strong man. And his wife Janice is on my mind every day. I cannot imagine the pain she is going through. We were both young when we married and have been married to the same husband for almost 30 years. This has hit her hard. I hope when the new baby comes (which should be any day now) that that little girl will give her something to keep her preoccupied,

It is dark and gloomy outside and I think I am feeling like that on the inside. I feel weepy today :(