Soo tired...

Tired of
trying: to come with a new way of dealing with this.
wrapping my head around it all.
reliving the last 14 years.
not being able to sleep.
 being depressed.
feeling incompetent.
feeling useless.
hearing about it.
listening to it.
agreeing with it.
being angry.
being sad.
having this hang over our heads.
ruining my day.
it having this much power over us.
it affecting all of us.
of everything!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Too Much!!!!

This has been one of those weeks!!! I said to Missy the other day i just had the 3rd worst day of my life... I am drowning. My eldest daughter is up to her antic's again. I guess she really is a pill addict and has been stealing from everyone.

She has been stealing pills from me. She tried to find pills to steal from her grandparents on Christmas eve. She tried to find money to steal from her sister the other day so she could go to urgent care to get pills. Lord please help me through this!!!!!

I just can't believe 14 years later and we are still going through the same issues. OMG. Will this never end. Her husband has said this is his last time. If she does not stay clean this time he is taking the girls and leaving.....

I don't blame him. You can not live like that everyday. She mopes around and acts like there is no sunshine. No babies calling Mommie, No one who cares about her. It does not matter what you say, what you do, how you do it, how you say it. She is a border line personality disorder person. And I am tired. I can not fix this. No matter what I do I can not fix this.

Lord please help her!!!!......